Did you ever see that video of the guy who decided it would be a great idea to make a cheese fountain using a chocolate fountain setup? I mean, in theory, what innovation! I’d love a drippy, melty cheese fountain to dip cubes of bread or tart green apples in.
Of course, the execution of the idea quickly goes south.
His face. It’s priceless. And it’s a pretty good illustration of how I’ve felt all day long.
It all started with these stupid deployments I signed up to do last night. They were supposed to be “easy” and “quick” and “fun”. (Okay, okay, no one promised fun.) But then, about as long as it took for that chocolate fountain to come undone, things spiraled out of control.
I’ll spare you the technical details. I logged on at 7 pm anticipating being done by 7:30 at the latest. At 10:30 (may I remind you that my bedtime has been 8:30 these past few days to facilitate my early rising?) I decided I’d had enough and went to bed.
So of course, today I’m reeling from that sleep deprivation. Turns out, when you front-load your day with The Good Stuff, it really throws everything out of alignment when you (try your hardest to) sleep late and miss out on doing said Good Stuff. I mean, I’m supposed to be planning the next 3 months of my life today! Not to mention buying more boxes and packing up the bookshelf. Meanwhile, it’s already 4 pm and the kids are being chauffeured home as I type. (Oh shoot, I heard the hallway door open. Is that them?) Tonight is movie night, so once they get here there’s not a lot of flex room for, I don’t know. Going to the gym like I wanted to.
And on top of that, I got some pretty disappointing news that a school we really wanted to put the kids in has a completely full 4th grade, so it’s not going to work out to send them there. I’m trying not to spiral, but sometimes, it’s difficult.
All this is to say, though, that I’m not spiraling. I’M NOT SPIRALING!!! Truly. I’m not giving up, either. I’ll do the best I can to finish out this day strong, and try and remember that life is about pivoting during difficult days, and not about crossing off a bunch of arbitrary to-do’s in my lil pocket notebook.
And hey, if I want to celebrate what I have done today:
- I started and finished a two-point work task, leaving just one more task left to complete by next Friday
- I went to Benjamin Moore and grabbed a paint swatch of a color that a family friend had recommended we paint our house in Ohio
- I went on a walk to the library and picked up two books Ambrose had requested
- I got a bunch of groceries. Veggies in the house again!
- I started to plan meals for June…at least got through this coming week (fast-free!)
It’s only a little list, but it’s something. And like I said, I’m not giving up. Tomorrow, I can already sense (as I wrap this up at 9:15 pm) will be a caffeine-fueled day of productivity. Time to sign off now to sit down and write out my list.